So, out of boredom I came to check out my devArt page and noticed that my last journal was posted in June of 2008 (Am I lazy or what?!). So I figured now was as good a time as any to actually update, sorta...

So, excitement, stress, nervousness, and fear are all being clumped into the little bundle of emotions that is me. Now I, being the kind of person that handles stress and whatnot pretty well is suddenly not able to cope with all the stuff that is on my plate. It's kind of upsetting to admit but I've been very angry and bitchy to a fair number of people recently. I don't mean to, I'm just not coping well.

So I guess we'll start things off with work. I have a test coming up on, oh god, wednesday, and I need to pass it. Like, if I don't I have to go infront of the board and explain why i fail at life, etc etc. Not cool. And the test is all memorising word for word stupid shit about finding information in publications. The practical part is easy, the memorising is not, but I'll be studying during my free time at school so hopefully I'll do alright.

On top of that I've been trying to deal with work for next year, since I wont be in London anymore. Because of school I can't go full-time in the trade I wanted, so I'll be continuing as an NCI-Op, which isn't bad but it's going to be difficult without a Naval base to go to. My paperwork is in... but who knows when I'll find out if everything is a go ><. So, this whole transfering bases thing in driving me off the walls. Also, I'm waiting on my security clearance to go through so I can go away for the entire summer to the east coast for lots of money. I need money D=!

Money. Can't live with it, can't live without it. And me, I like to spend it. I think I need a bank alt IRL. I need 10'000$ for next year and... my savings continue to drop. Again, I'm hoping my summer employment works out like planned or I'm fucked for next year. And with the economy the way it is I can't even attempt to get a second job to try to keep the cash coming in.

On the brightside I'm moving away next year (hence the excitement). I'll be moving into Canadore's residence next year (which looks absolutely beautiful!) in North Bay (6 hours away my lovelies). My first res payment hasn't come out of my bank yet and it's kind of starting to scare me, cuz I don't want to not have a place to live next year xD.

I'm really hoping I get cool roommates. I know how much it sucks to live with people you don't get along with, but I'm crossing my fingers, and my toes, and my arms and and and... ya... I'm terrified of moving out now... even though I was so excited a month ago. With the exception of Xmas and Reading week I wont be seeing my family/friends for well, three years. There's a good chance I wont be coming home in the summer because of work so... I'm like completely separating myself from everybody.

I know it won't be hard to cope or anything, I practically moved out for the summer last year (Oh, bootcamp!) But, I still feel scared and whatnot. (K now I'm seriously rambling...)

I'd like to mention I was not expecting this journal to be so long! I'm kind of proud of myself now.


In other news, I had a moment of inspiration a little while back, so if I ever get off my lazy ass (and WoW(lvl 80!! finally!!)) I have some sketches to upload... they suck, but I need something new on my page lol.

Wow... just realized I havent eaten real food all day... explains why I'm hungry lol. Ah well, it's early and I'm going to bed. I don't care if this journal actually makes any sense xD I'm not going to be the one reading it lol!

Night all.